Monday, January 31, 2005

Feelin' Good

I am so happy. I love the feeling that I'm having right now. Things are going so well in different areas of my life. Even for the few issues that I deal with from time to time, it's not so bad. My Biology lab isn't so bad. The 3 hours seem to pass pretty quickly. Not to mention the other 3 ladies that share my table, they are very nice. I think this won't be so bad after all. We had a project to do this pass Saturday, weight worms and place them in tubes with dirt and a little water to see how much they grow over the next couple of weeks. Thank God there were others who didn't mind dealing with the works :). I was responsible for labeling the tape for our glass tubes. (That I can deal with -- worms, I cannot.)

My children spent the weekend with their father. I attended a Mardi Gras function with a male friend that evening. He invited me on Tuesday -- giving scimpy details. I had to ask what the attire was. Other than that, I wasn't given much information. He did tell me that it was semi-formal (after I asked twice). I guess men are different when it comes to events like this. I want to know details -- where is it going to be, what time does it start, who is hosting the function, and so on. This helps me decide the look I need to have. I was torn between buying something or choosing something that was already in my closet. I had my hair styled (updo) on Friday night. Saturday after class I bought shoes, a necklace and a bracelet to match. He called me letting me know to be ready by 7 p.m. because it started at 7:30. At about 7:20 he called, pissed. He had accidentally stepped on his cufflink and broke it. He wanted me to run to the store and get some super glue for him while he jumped in the shower. I'm thinking 'what'!? You're just now getting in the shower. Not to mention, I had rushed around that evening to make certain that I would be ready when he came by (at 7 p.m.).

Anyway, I kept quiet and agreed to get the super glue for him. I had to undress (I was ready) because I didn't want to chance getting a run in my stockings. I went to the closest store that I felt would have it -- which was Walgreens. I made it home and changed back into my attire for the evening. Shortly after, he called and said he was 4 minutes away. I opened the door and he had the cutest smile when he saw me. He told me that I looked beautiful. I could feel myself blushing.

I glued the piece back onto his cufflink and we were on the road at about 7:45 p.m. We made it just in time. I found out (on the way) that it was at a hotel and was being hosted by his fraternity (but a different chapter than his). He obviously didn't look at his tickets well before hand because we were a little confused at first as to where we were going.

It turned out to be a very nice event. It was well organized and started ON TIME. The entertainment was good (2 comedians and a singer). The DJ was very good as well. I had a nice time. I always enjoy being with him. That night was different somehow. He made me feel so special. Things have been going so well between us. Hopefully, things will work out for the best. For right now, I am sooooo happy.


Thursday, January 20, 2005

Living life . . .

Things have been going good for the most part this week. My classes have started. My computer has been upgraded with additional memory. I've loaded the necessary software and other requirements to successfully complete my courses. I have made contact with both of my instructors. Am I on a roll or what?! I am going to really enjoy this math class. So far it's simple. Hopefully I will finish the class in 8 weeks instead of 16. I will then be able to take another math class (not counted towards my degree) for the remaining 8 weeks.

In other school news, my son has had 2 good days in a row! You don't know how much this pleases me. I am seriously stressed when he comes home with a bad conduct report. I don't care if it's just talking. I want him to be quiet, pay attention to the teacher and focus on getting his assignments done in class. Is this too much to ask from a 9 year old boy? Nah, I don't think so. I promised him that if he is good all week, I will buy him a basketball. The week was in his favor -- no school on Monday so he only has 4 days to worry about. My daughter has been good as usual. She gets so excited about telling me she has had a good day. I have to remind myself to get excited as well. She's always good so I'm used to it and I expect it.

I have a lab class on Saturday that lasts 3 hours. I hope that my children's father will keep them. I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't. He could care less about me trying to better myself by furthering my education. I'll just pray about it and hope that if he doesn't help me out by keeping the kids this semester, that I'll have a friend or two that I can fall back on. You would think the hard part would be having the money to pay for tuition & books -- nope, not for me -- it's the child care issue. That's one bad thing about not having family within quick driving distance. Oh well, I'll try not to get too stressed out about it just yet.


I'm In Love :)
I found a hairdresser that I just looooooove. He is so good that I will pinch every penny to make sure that I get to him every 2 weeks. He is a good stylist and he is all about healthy hair. His style & techniques are so different (and I've been to a good amount of hair stylists over the years). The BEST thing about him is....... he does NOT keep you waiting for 30 minutes or more before he seats you in his chair. I am really in heaven. The first visit I was out in 2 hours and that was because I needed a trim (and he was very thorough). The latest visit, yesterday, took about 3 hours. That's because I had my hair relaxed and set. He does not book his customers back-to-back where you have 2 waiting, one in his chair and maybe 2 or 3 under the dryer. My hair looks & feels great. O.k., I'm through with the commercial, but, if you're in Dallas and need a hair stylist -- just let me know and I'll hook you up with him.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

The start of a new year

2005 is off to a pleasant, positive start. I spent New Year's Eve with my children and friends. I did a little shopping on New Year's day with the kids and a friend. I must admit that I shopped longer than I intended. Later that night I went out to dinner with friends & their family. It was so much fun. I always enjoy dining at good Mexican food restaurants. After dinner we went back to one of my friend's apartment and played Phase 10 (I lost).

I purchased books for my 2 classes earlier this week. About half of it was covered by financial aid (the line was long). My out-of-pocket expense was a little over $100. My USED Biology book was $98! Oh well, it's paid for now. I searched on the internet for the same used book and found that I could have purchased one for as low as $50. I don't feel like dealing with waiting on the book to arrive, the actual condition, etc. I'll just keep what I have. My classes start next week. My emotions are somewhat mixed. I'm both excited and a little nervous. I'm sure I'll do well (as long as I keep telling myself this).

My son is now taking karate lessons (my daughter has been taking them for over a month now). I must admit that if up to him, he wouldn't be doing it. I've gotten advice from a few men and thought long and hard about it. I felt that he needed to be involved in something that will enforce self-discipline, among other things. This is his 2nd week and he LOVES it! I'm so glad that I made the right decision.

My personal life is not bad. I just need to have patience and go where God leads me. I had a serious talk with the only man that I have really been drawn to since my divorce (over 3 years ago). He has his faults but so does everyone -- including me. There is something about him that just captures my heart. We had a serious talk and if things are going to work between us, I really need to make a change. I know that I have been quick to get frustrated or angry and cut ties with him (on numerous occasions). It's surprising that despite the fact that I love him, I will still allow this bad behavior to keep resurfacing. I told him (o.k. - I text messaged him) and let him know that no matter what direction our relationship takes, I will always love him. He must be feeling more comfortable with our discussion and believes me when I said that I will handle things differently in the future. He came by to visit on Sunday. We also spent time together on Tuesday and I realized how much I missed him and how much I enjoy his company.

I received an e-mail the other day about making the right choices. I won't post all of it but here's a few statements that really stood out.
Patience brings about better choices. So the slower you go, the sooner you are able to enjoy what you really desired rather than having to come back and clean up things you could have prevented that cost you extra time. In order for you to get God's perfect plan and minimize disaster, you must make the right choice. Start your year off making a decision to tell yourself the truth, not live in an illusion of what you want to see but what is reality and face it. Then ask God to direct your steps so every choice you make will be better than the ones you have made in the past. Why? Your peace of mind depends on it!